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just got off work about 15 minutes ago. it was a slow night so i actually got to sleep thru the night. lauren called me last night while i was at work. i havent heard from her in weeks. i keep trying to just forget about her but as soon as i get to a point where im good and not constantly thinking about where she is or what shes doing or whether she thinks about me too, she calls. she asked if i was going to davids party tonight, i told her i didnt know. i dont want to go if she will be there. i dont want to sit there all night and watch her get trashed and try and hook up with all my friends. been there, done that and it doesnt ever end pretty.
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help to fix myself
Your making me insane
All I can say is
I tried to help you once
A kiss will only vise
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last dance
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
i just happened to be listening to this and thought the lyrics were appropriate for the mood im in right now. im going back to bed.
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[05 Aug 2005|02:27am] |
wedding crashers was awesome. go see it!
i was trying to get off this weekend so that i could come home, but i couldnt find anyone to cover for me. maybe ill get next weekend off. nate and i wanna check out that new club in north austin.
gotta work tomorrow at 7. party sat night at david and kristins. then work again sunday. should be a long weekend.
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[02 Aug 2005|12:58pm] |
finally got around to posting these. i was beat from floating the river on sunday then having to go to work on monday. going to see wedding crashers tonight with nate and david. i heard it was hilarious.
( pictures from sunday )
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[01 Aug 2005|12:13pm] |
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aww shit. we had a bad ass time floating the river yesterday. ill post pictures tonight when i actually put them on the computer.
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[30 Jul 2005|07:24am] |
sgt wilson called and said some of the guys fucked up last night so they are stuck cleaning the whole fire station so i dont have to go until 9 this morning. i only got like 4 hours of sleep last night but i cant go back to sleep now. hopefully today will be slow and since we wont have to clean anything ill be able to crash out in the rec room.
sometimes i wish i had a different job. one where i only worked monday to friday instead of 24 on 24 off but ive wanted to be a fireman since i was a kid so i guess ill just have to deal with it. i just hate missing out of shit on the weekends cause i have to be up early the next morning.
im floating the comal tomorrow with some friends. ill post pictures when we get back.
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[29 Jul 2005|12:02am] |
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only 99 more days til they are shipping me off to the desert
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[28 Jul 2005|01:11pm] |
i was back in austin this past weekend. we over to side pocket with some of the boys and had a good time. just played some pool and got drunk. we went over to dreamers afterwards and got these coupons for free porn at the new dreamers downtown. FREE PORN!!
i didnt have time to go down there before i had to go back to base but next time im in austin im gonna go get me some free porn.
my lunch break is almost over so i got to go back to work.
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[27 Jul 2005|11:56pm] |
well i figured id get one of these since everyone has one. i guess it will be good for me so i can write about things that happen when i go over to iraq.
things are goinig pretty good right now. just enjoying myself and my job. hangin out with the boys. getting drunk. pretty much the same old shit.
i always start things that i never keep up with so dont be surprised if i dont update much. ill try my best to keep up with this and post pictures and stuff.
well i guess im gonna hit the hay. i got duty tomorrow at 7.
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